It was last week when I friend threw a party and invited me plus one; I went there alone, but already knew in advance that some of my friends will be there.
What I haven’t realized though was how they would react the moment I appeared in the bar–said short hello and went on with the conversation they were leading.
Those were the facts.
I sensed I was not wanted there on a much deeper level.
Is it familiar that feeling when your gut instinct is stronger than what the reasonable mind was saying? That was the case in point.
So I joined some colleagues from work that were also invited and tried not to be reflected by what had just happened.
So went the night… I did not make any effort to go to the next table where my friends sat, they did not either.
When I was leaving I said short goodbye and one of them commented that we should have spent some time together that night.
What happened in my view is that we have become the leftovers of what were once friends.
People change, times change, interests change.
We have diverged so much over time that I do not think we have what to share to one another any longer.
The habitual coffee gatherings have become obligations hard to stick to and even harder to accomplish.
We haven’t spoken since then. I am not saying there are hard feelings or anything, I am just saying that I feel the energy we’re emitting and that is stronger than anything else anyone could say.
Having said that – I am sure they feel the same as well.
Friends from my youth are representing the mindset I once had; I know I have changed so much lately. Consequently – old friends are not compatible with my new mindset and attitude.
I embrace life from the core of my being, eager to find out what is waiting for me on the next corner, with no regrets of the past and the people I left behind.
I just realized – that’s just how life is.
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